Haha..
funny how things turn out.. day has got boredocarcinoma
But i'm in the worser state - being diagnosed of boredocarcinoma and it is in advance stage where it has metastasis - developing into restlessocarcinoma.
Dont really know what has gotten into me... it's like there is this wave inside me... and it is a very rough wave due to strong wind & bad weather, and i cant seem to calm myself. Found out that one of the most effective way is to just sit down and listen to someone talk.. well, cant afford to do that all the time, besides, who would have all the energy to talk to a hyperactive, restless, jumpy gal all the time.
Lucky that i have a found another way to let go of the steam.. at least temporarily - the alternative way was to get out.. wherever u want, and just walk pointlessly...
Well, at least it has cool of my steam there other way.. or would say, like chemotherapy, controlling the restlessocarcinoma.
As for the way to eradicate it.. i have yet to find.
Monday, June 28, 2004
Thursday, June 24, 2004
Boredocarcinoma
Boredom...
Been having it for a few days, probably longer. At times it seemed to have vanished only to come back seconds later. How in the world do you get rid of this boredom?
Some equate boredom with nothing to do.
I don't think so. With tonnes of things at hand and mountains coming my way in the days ahead, I feel bored. When I do get a day of rest with nothing to do and to be able to sleep as long as I pleased, I feel bored. When I'm running around doing this and catching up with that I feel bored. When I'm brought to the most happening place aka pubs or disco, I feel bored.
What is happening? Can Life be as boring as it is now? Will holidays be able to get rid of it? I doubt it. It seemed to have also gone for a holiday when I went for one. Only it came tumbling back with double the intensity when holidaying is over. Could this be termed as lazyness? Possibly, could it? Maybe this is stress? How could that be? Each time I feel bored, I want to find more things to do. Nope, not stress. Stress is just temporal and pyschological. Not a disease.
Maybe...just maybe by writing this I could write the boredom off. No joking...I'm begining to think that this boredom thing is a malicious cancer. Maybe I'll call it Boredocarcinoma with no curable medication as of currently.
Maybe it is just me, or does anyone else out there caught this cancer as well?
Been having it for a few days, probably longer. At times it seemed to have vanished only to come back seconds later. How in the world do you get rid of this boredom?
Some equate boredom with nothing to do.
I don't think so. With tonnes of things at hand and mountains coming my way in the days ahead, I feel bored. When I do get a day of rest with nothing to do and to be able to sleep as long as I pleased, I feel bored. When I'm running around doing this and catching up with that I feel bored. When I'm brought to the most happening place aka pubs or disco, I feel bored.
What is happening? Can Life be as boring as it is now? Will holidays be able to get rid of it? I doubt it. It seemed to have also gone for a holiday when I went for one. Only it came tumbling back with double the intensity when holidaying is over. Could this be termed as lazyness? Possibly, could it? Maybe this is stress? How could that be? Each time I feel bored, I want to find more things to do. Nope, not stress. Stress is just temporal and pyschological. Not a disease.
Maybe...just maybe by writing this I could write the boredom off. No joking...I'm begining to think that this boredom thing is a malicious cancer. Maybe I'll call it Boredocarcinoma with no curable medication as of currently.
Maybe it is just me, or does anyone else out there caught this cancer as well?
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Euro 2004
The Euro fever is here.. actually is already here for quite a while.
Though i really enjoy watching football, unfortunately the odd hours really got to me.
Somehow unable to really wake up and watch these days... and yes, i'm putting blame on the bella i'm taking to cure my cough.
Anyway, did try to wake up for the earlier games - like the England Switzerland match. But the sleepy bugs dragged me off to dreamland after the first half.
Did remember the better times when i really had time & energy to watch it. Seeing United winning matches actually brightens up days.. funny yah.. i got to be crazy
Anyway, yesterday England won the match against Croatia. Cheers to Rooney... for the 2 goals. It's funny that when you watch games within clubs.. you are actually supporting different players.. and when it comes to international level.. the players differs too. Guess, that is where it came in that you are actually supporting the club or country instead of the players... whatever...
Anyway, think the official website is really providing informative & up to dates details.. and i've enjoy reading the matches.. even though i have problem waking up to watch it ;)
Euro 2004 website - updates on the England - Croatia match
Though i really enjoy watching football, unfortunately the odd hours really got to me.
Somehow unable to really wake up and watch these days... and yes, i'm putting blame on the bella i'm taking to cure my cough.
Anyway, did try to wake up for the earlier games - like the England Switzerland match. But the sleepy bugs dragged me off to dreamland after the first half.
Did remember the better times when i really had time & energy to watch it. Seeing United winning matches actually brightens up days.. funny yah.. i got to be crazy
Anyway, yesterday England won the match against Croatia. Cheers to Rooney... for the 2 goals. It's funny that when you watch games within clubs.. you are actually supporting different players.. and when it comes to international level.. the players differs too. Guess, that is where it came in that you are actually supporting the club or country instead of the players... whatever...
Anyway, think the official website is really providing informative & up to dates details.. and i've enjoy reading the matches.. even though i have problem waking up to watch it ;)
Euro 2004 website - updates on the England - Croatia match
Monday, June 21, 2004
To a friend...
What do you feel when a friend or close friend is leaving you? Well, I am sure at least at one point of your life, your friend might be leaving… to further his/her studies, move, migrate… anything…
How do you feel? It’s like this certain person has enter your life, leave a footprint, but you know that you might not see him/her again, at least not in a short while. Yes, I know… there is such thing call letters, emails, telephones, instant messengers… but you would not know as things are never guaranteed to be the same again. People might choose not to write or call… perhaps too busy…. On the other hand, you yourself might have put off the phone call, the intention to keep in touch… I don’t know.
Another friend is leaving to start another chapter of his life. Guess I would not see him so often then. Funny how things turn out to be… somehow there is this feeling of emptiness when I know that he is leaving. Guess I am getting too comfortable in his company. But, he need not know.
I quote from Calvin & Hobbes, “Things are never quite as scary when you've got a best friend.” We might not be the best of friends, but things really aren’t so scary when he is around. :)
How do you feel? It’s like this certain person has enter your life, leave a footprint, but you know that you might not see him/her again, at least not in a short while. Yes, I know… there is such thing call letters, emails, telephones, instant messengers… but you would not know as things are never guaranteed to be the same again. People might choose not to write or call… perhaps too busy…. On the other hand, you yourself might have put off the phone call, the intention to keep in touch… I don’t know.
Another friend is leaving to start another chapter of his life. Guess I would not see him so often then. Funny how things turn out to be… somehow there is this feeling of emptiness when I know that he is leaving. Guess I am getting too comfortable in his company. But, he need not know.
I quote from Calvin & Hobbes, “Things are never quite as scary when you've got a best friend.” We might not be the best of friends, but things really aren’t so scary when he is around. :)
The Ugly Side of Me… Literally :)
Went out with a friend a few days ago. He said something that though I am not thrill to admit, I shall give him the credit that he deserved…
Though I know that it is TRUE, gosh… I hate to admit it. The fact is that it has actually been there and has stay put since ages ago. It’s not that I’ve come to terms with it but more to I’m trying to be ignorant.
Anyway, today, I shall humble myself (another friend once told me that once in a while, we need to do something to humble ourselves… and yes, I am going to listen to her).
Ok… here goes, I’m going to reveal the really ugly side of me… physically, literally… So, people, don’t blink, read on, I don’t do this everyday.
1. I’m FAT
2. I slouch… badly
3. There’s never a day my face is free from zits, pimples and acne
4. I’ve got tummy
5. Flabby arms
6. Countless scars… from chicken pox (one or two), pimples (a lot more), accidents (big patches and definitely visible)
7. Fat legs
8. Unkept and bushy hair
9. Lousy look – which includes small eyes, big nose… which completely contradicts how people describe pretty faces… trust me… :)
10…. And yah, I conveniently forgot to mention that I’m d*mn short
Well, I know most of it is changeable… if I’m er… like determine and really trying to change it…
Unfortunately, the is a lazy bug haunting me… but that is another story :)
Though I know that it is TRUE, gosh… I hate to admit it. The fact is that it has actually been there and has stay put since ages ago. It’s not that I’ve come to terms with it but more to I’m trying to be ignorant.
Anyway, today, I shall humble myself (another friend once told me that once in a while, we need to do something to humble ourselves… and yes, I am going to listen to her).
Ok… here goes, I’m going to reveal the really ugly side of me… physically, literally… So, people, don’t blink, read on, I don’t do this everyday.
1. I’m FAT
2. I slouch… badly
3. There’s never a day my face is free from zits, pimples and acne
4. I’ve got tummy
5. Flabby arms
6. Countless scars… from chicken pox (one or two), pimples (a lot more), accidents (big patches and definitely visible)
7. Fat legs
8. Unkept and bushy hair
9. Lousy look – which includes small eyes, big nose… which completely contradicts how people describe pretty faces… trust me… :)
10…. And yah, I conveniently forgot to mention that I’m d*mn short
Well, I know most of it is changeable… if I’m er… like determine and really trying to change it…
Unfortunately, the is a lazy bug haunting me… but that is another story :)
Saturday, June 19, 2004
Internet friend
Sometimes you don't know who you will be meeting in this invisible world. The person you befriended seemed like this idea of a friendship you wanted to have. But then as conversation thrown back and forth, you realised, up to an extend you kind of think.."Oh o, what have i got myself into?"
There has been alot of websites about meeting your friends and adding new friends and stuff. It is this site when I met this kid..16 years old. He added me because of some article i wrote in that site. And I approved him because i felt honoured that someone liked my article...or should I say my gibberish. :P
I don't like the world that is turning out today. I know it has more negative exposures and there's seemed to have no positive vibes to neutralised it. And this kid shared my thoughts. But somehow deep inside, i felt troubled. Here is a kid that is angry of the world. And he is only 16. How could a person be so angry at the wworld at such a young age. He talks about his admiration of Hitler. Of his sense of power towards the people. Of the leadership quality he seemed to have. Could this kid be influenced? Could this kid be nuturing a kind of hatred in his heart? I sincerely hope not.
There has been alot of websites about meeting your friends and adding new friends and stuff. It is this site when I met this kid..16 years old. He added me because of some article i wrote in that site. And I approved him because i felt honoured that someone liked my article...or should I say my gibberish. :P
I don't like the world that is turning out today. I know it has more negative exposures and there's seemed to have no positive vibes to neutralised it. And this kid shared my thoughts. But somehow deep inside, i felt troubled. Here is a kid that is angry of the world. And he is only 16. How could a person be so angry at the wworld at such a young age. He talks about his admiration of Hitler. Of his sense of power towards the people. Of the leadership quality he seemed to have. Could this kid be influenced? Could this kid be nuturing a kind of hatred in his heart? I sincerely hope not.
Thursday, June 17, 2004
My recent craze
Out of nowhere... i have this sudden craze over this chinese song
It all started on a certain Tuesday where i took leave to settle some things.
Lucky for me, i manage to finish to "TO DO" list fast & reached home by 5 something.
The routine was to click on the TV and MVP Valentine was on. I dont follow the show though it was popular when it first came out. Even till now, that episode that i happened to watch was the only episode i ever watched.
Anyhow, somehow, i was hooked to the song, it has good lyrics ;)
so.. here it is...
click here
It all started on a certain Tuesday where i took leave to settle some things.
Lucky for me, i manage to finish to "TO DO" list fast & reached home by 5 something.
The routine was to click on the TV and MVP Valentine was on. I dont follow the show though it was popular when it first came out. Even till now, that episode that i happened to watch was the only episode i ever watched.
Anyhow, somehow, i was hooked to the song, it has good lyrics ;)
so.. here it is...
click here
Monday, June 14, 2004
Death
Death. Everyone will eventually end their life. Was it good? Was it just a passing of time? Had it accomplised its mission? Had it served its purpose?
Life. A gift that no one deserved. A gift come unexpected. A gift, so short, yet full of promises, hope, and dreams.
But...some often thinks of death. Oh..why don't i just disappear from this world? Oh..why do these things happened to me....I might as well die, then everything will be OK. Oh...my heart is broken, I find no purpose to live....these thoughts passed their mind...passed their lips.
Question...why do such doom loom over their thoughts? why problems seeemed so big that they couldn't face it? Stupidity! Idiotic! Does everyone think that death could just solve the problem? Such selfishness! Such self-centeredness! Such simpleton! Such moron!
Hundreds and millions of people faced the angel of death everyday. Do they want to? Look beyond yourself! Look around you! People running to save their lives from bullets and bombs. People digging in search for food to fill their empty stomachs. People lying on the bed in the hospital, crying...doctor, doctor, save me. Don't give up on me!
And you think of slicing that knife across your wrist? And you think that a bottle of sleeping pills will solve everything? Such naivety.
Choices. Unwanted pregnancies. Abortions. Life was given to them. But was stolen from them even before they could even have a chance to fight for it. Don't they get a chance to live? don't they get a chance to see the world? One night of passion, one night of nincompoop....a murder was made. Excuses that feotus, a lump of tissues. No life. Then what are you made of?
I just read one depressing journal. 3 journals were posted. All about wanting to end her life. All about the promises that Lucifer made to her. A story? A thought? An influence?
Disturbed....Mortified...Perplexed.
Lucifer and Death is not a good combination.
Life. A gift that no one deserved. A gift come unexpected. A gift, so short, yet full of promises, hope, and dreams.
But...some often thinks of death. Oh..why don't i just disappear from this world? Oh..why do these things happened to me....I might as well die, then everything will be OK. Oh...my heart is broken, I find no purpose to live....these thoughts passed their mind...passed their lips.
Question...why do such doom loom over their thoughts? why problems seeemed so big that they couldn't face it? Stupidity! Idiotic! Does everyone think that death could just solve the problem? Such selfishness! Such self-centeredness! Such simpleton! Such moron!
Hundreds and millions of people faced the angel of death everyday. Do they want to? Look beyond yourself! Look around you! People running to save their lives from bullets and bombs. People digging in search for food to fill their empty stomachs. People lying on the bed in the hospital, crying...doctor, doctor, save me. Don't give up on me!
And you think of slicing that knife across your wrist? And you think that a bottle of sleeping pills will solve everything? Such naivety.
Choices. Unwanted pregnancies. Abortions. Life was given to them. But was stolen from them even before they could even have a chance to fight for it. Don't they get a chance to live? don't they get a chance to see the world? One night of passion, one night of nincompoop....a murder was made. Excuses that feotus, a lump of tissues. No life. Then what are you made of?
I just read one depressing journal. 3 journals were posted. All about wanting to end her life. All about the promises that Lucifer made to her. A story? A thought? An influence?
Disturbed....Mortified...Perplexed.
Lucifer and Death is not a good combination.
Thursday, June 10, 2004
Bookcrossing
Have you ever come across book lying around your path?
Have you ever seen book that writes across - READ me...I'm FREE!....Remember me...?
I just come across the website - bookcrossing.com
Show about book lovers all across the globe that put their beloved books at public places. Leaving for others to read. Leaving to let others share of their passion on reading. Books that touch their hearts. Books that may touch yours.
I'm so excited...imagine you book being read by millions, your book crossing the country. Different people, different culture, different opinions, different stature, different background. SAME passion.
Imagine...1 book, millions of people...the world is its oyster.
Have you ever seen book that writes across - READ me...I'm FREE!....Remember me...?
I just come across the website - bookcrossing.com
Show about book lovers all across the globe that put their beloved books at public places. Leaving for others to read. Leaving to let others share of their passion on reading. Books that touch their hearts. Books that may touch yours.
I'm so excited...imagine you book being read by millions, your book crossing the country. Different people, different culture, different opinions, different stature, different background. SAME passion.
Imagine...1 book, millions of people...the world is its oyster.
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
Chat with God
God: Hello. Did you call me?
Me: Called you? No. Who is this?
God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.
God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too!.
Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic.
God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.
Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?
God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.
Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.
God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.
Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?
God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading..
God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God: Success! is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessings, not what you are missing.
Me: What surprises you about people?
God: When they suffer they ask, "Why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me?" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer.
God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. !
Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.
Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Year with a new sense of inspiration.
God: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.
Me: Called you? No. Who is this?
God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.
God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too!.
Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic.
God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.
Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?
God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.
Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.
God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.
Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?
God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading..
God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God: Success! is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessings, not what you are missing.
Me: What surprises you about people?
God: When they suffer they ask, "Why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me?" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer.
God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. !
Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.
Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Year with a new sense of inspiration.
God: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.
Friday, June 04, 2004
The small things in life
The sun is shining. Yet it is not hot, it is a good weather. It has been quite a while since I see the sun after work. Thanks to the little things in life that makes life bearable.
... a sms from a friend asking me if I have received reply from something I’ve been awaiting
... a message from a friend telling me someone interested in knowing me… hehe… funny… would love to know what the person sees in me... perhaps not seeing is the key :)
... knowing that episode 45 of my all-time favourite comic – Detective Conan is out.
... found that even episode 46 is out too :)
... a warm smile from a friend… the kind of smile straight from the heart
... knowing that my loyal 2 wheel companion no longer generating weird, squeaky sound without sending it to the workshop
I’ve learned… that it’s those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular
... a sms from a friend asking me if I have received reply from something I’ve been awaiting
... a message from a friend telling me someone interested in knowing me… hehe… funny… would love to know what the person sees in me... perhaps not seeing is the key :)
... knowing that episode 45 of my all-time favourite comic – Detective Conan is out.
... found that even episode 46 is out too :)
... a warm smile from a friend… the kind of smile straight from the heart
... knowing that my loyal 2 wheel companion no longer generating weird, squeaky sound without sending it to the workshop
I’ve learned… that it’s those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular
Comes the Dawn
Comes the Dawn – first read it when my friend sent it to me. If I am not wrong, before that we were (a few of my friends and me) chatting via email on the other half in lives. I suppose that was it or else… the poem does not come in mind.
Anyhow, when I read it… somehow it gave me another feeling… like you would have to know that it is time… that you should learn to fend for yourself. I wonder…
Anyway, here it is… :)
Comes The Dawn
After a while you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn’t mean security
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
And presents aren’t promises
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes open
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting –
For someone to bring you flowers
And you learn that you really can endure…
That you really are strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and learn
With every goodbye you learn.
~ Veronic Shoffstall
Anyhow, when I read it… somehow it gave me another feeling… like you would have to know that it is time… that you should learn to fend for yourself. I wonder…
Anyway, here it is… :)
Comes The Dawn
After a while you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn’t mean security
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
And presents aren’t promises
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes open
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting –
For someone to bring you flowers
And you learn that you really can endure…
That you really are strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and learn
With every goodbye you learn.
~ Veronic Shoffstall
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
The tunnel
I know life is hard, problems is part & parcel of it.
I know there will always be light at the end of the tunnel.
I know things will turn out fine in the end… though there might be consequences.
But that does not guarantee that along the road, along the tunnel there would not be holes, there would not be obstacles…
Going through, one by one, makes me so tired
How I wish, along the tunnel, someone would walk with me; need not race with me to the end of it. But keep me company on certain darkest journey of it?
Sigh…
I know there will always be light at the end of the tunnel.
I know things will turn out fine in the end… though there might be consequences.
But that does not guarantee that along the road, along the tunnel there would not be holes, there would not be obstacles…
Going through, one by one, makes me so tired
How I wish, along the tunnel, someone would walk with me; need not race with me to the end of it. But keep me company on certain darkest journey of it?
Sigh…
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